Decreation

"Relentless Necessity, wretchedness, distress, the crushing burden of poverty and of labour which wears us out, cruelty, torture, violent death, constraint, disease- all these constitute divine love. It is God who in love withdraws from us so that we can love him. For if we were exposed to the direct radiance of his love, without the protection of space, of time and of matter, we should be evaporated like water in the sun; there would not be enough 'I' in us to make it possible to surrender the 'I' for love's sake. Necessity is the screen set between God and us so that we can be. It is for us to pierce through the screen so that we cease to be.

There exists a 'deifugal' force. Otherwise all would be God."

Looking at necessity as physical distance from God so that we can be seems a bit contradictory. Understanding necessity as a physical distance from God, which is perhaps a true statement. It is our fallen nature (Sin, which creates distance between me and God) that marks our lack which is a prerequisit for necessity. Calling it a screen is a fairly good analogy in the sense that there is a penetrable wall between the two. A conditional viscosity is required- how available (viscous, malleable) are you to receive God's grace? (then the question of predestination comes in from the baptist peanut gallery...perhaps I'm digging into the analogy too much)

But my point being is that in the garden, what was the distance between God and Man, and how does that distance differ after the fall...God who is beyond time, how does his relationship to man transform before and after the fall (which is linear): God's relationship doesn't change, but Man's relationship changes.

So the final question remains, if we are without lack (in the garden before the fall), what is our condition of 'being'- if Weil suggests that Necessity is the screen set between God and us so that we can be? There must have been some sort of distance in the Garden, (adam was not God)...but how was that distance different from the distance that Sin placed between Man and God. I understand that these are mere formalities that aren't necessarily relevant to my own realtionship to God, but they seem like curious departure points in order to bring me back to a further understanding of my own relationship to Him.

Can we ever 'cease to be' here on earth? seeming to imply death, ceasing to be could be a spiritual death or a physical death...I would believe it to be first a spiritual one so that God can fully 'be' in us. That is the essence of salvation. However, as we struggle with our flesh, it is a fluxuation between ceasing to be and being that brings upon spiritual warfare.

These are all loose thoughts, not fully investigated or articulated.